felicityq8

سأظل دوما احبكم...

2007-01-06T12:17:00.000-08:00

photo by me..

احساس غريب انتابني ... بحثت عن مصدره ... مكانه.... التفت حولي...يمنة و يسره.... نظرت الى الباب ....ثم النافذة .. اعتقدته هواءا باردا ... لكن للاسف لم يكن..

..ضممت يداي حول جسدي..سحبت اقرب غطاء حولي ....علني ادفيئ نفسي به....سألتها ... ما هذا الشعور!!.....غريبٌ مصدره....لم اجد جوابا .....نظرت الى الساعة و اذ بعقاربها تتجه ل 12 :00 صباحا واذ بي لاشعوريا اوجه عيناي التي انهكهما التعب و السهر الى رزنامة وضعتها منذ عام مضى على طاولة قرب سريري....

يا الهي......اين كنت طوال هذا الوقت؟؟....لا ليس حلما...انه واقع .....ماذا دهاني ......مضت سنة كاملة...وها انا ذا استقبل عاما جديدا ..اليوم و بعد ان دقت عقارب الساعة 12:00...اصبحت في 2007 ....

لقد ايقظني هذا الشعور الزائر ....ونبهني الى مرور الوقت بأشهره و ساعاته...جعلني احاسب نفسي .... ما الذي فعلته و ماالذي لم افعله....هل حققت مرادي ام ليس بعد!!...هل نضجت الفتاة الصغيرة الشقية... ام لازالت هي نفسها المدللة ا !!..من فقدت !! من احببت! من كسبت كصديق!! من ودعت كحبيب !! ...

الى كل من احببته ....مع بداية سنة جديده وحلول صفحة بيضاء....طوينا قبلها صفحة كانت مليئة بأحداث ....مهما كانت هذه الاحداث...الى كل من شاركني يومي ووقتي ...بأفراحه و احزانه.... الى كل من مسح دمعة ذرفت على وجنتي..الى كل من رسم ضحكة على شفتي... .... احبكم ...و سأظل دوما احبكم.... منكم من غير حياتي... نصحني....وعظني.....ومنكم من احسسني بي....كأنسانة..ابنة...صديقة...اخت .....و منكم من جرحني بقصد و من دون قصد... اسامحكم ... ….

اخيرا و ليس أخرا .....ان احلى ما في هذا الكون العظيم...قلب صافي ...يحبك فيبحث عنك..يفتقدك فيسأل عليك.... يشتاقلك فيدعو لك ...تشغله الدنيا فيذكرك....

كلمة ينبض بها قلبي...... احبكم ...و سأظل دوما احبكم...

ReAdY!!!

2006-12-29T02:35:00.000-08:00

taken by me :)

A new year of your life is coming…. Have you thought of what u wanna do… not to do …. What have u done…. Did not do yet….what to change…what to keep….... quit …not to quit….. were there any happy times….. or bad\ sad ones ….have u met the " one" who u were looking & digging for….. or maybe u have lost him\her for any reason ……have u achieved ur goals…… or not yet……

Well…. If I am going to mention the things u have to compare between,,,, I would not finish till tomorrow …..

i will start talking about my self….. this year was the "unique-est" & "the un- usual-est" ( if I am allowed to call it that way) year of my whole life…. In other word, I have never been through things which happened to me this year and existed in my previous years…. I know I am only 20years old and not 50 or 60….yet I feel like it has been centuries …….

Let me mention almost every thing happened this year :

1. I went to AL- HAJ ( so u can call me 7jiah ;p)
2. for the first time , I have wrote in a piece of paper what my goals are… and what I want to achieve in 2006.
3. my relation ship with my sister became more stronger than before….
4. i had an idea which I needed some one to support me to do it,,, and finally I did it ….which is to work and to be independence…..
5.i have been awarded for the third time by Kuwait University for being on the Dean's list ……means Tfwg J
6- I have discovered and developed my hobby which is Photography.
7- based on (6) I have joined the KU art gallery and I posted 3 of my best photos….guess what !! i won and ,,, or u know what …check this link and u will know every thing J
The link:

http://felicityq8.blogspot.com/2006/11/talented-me-p.html

8- I have celebrated my Birthday Party this year surrounded by people who I have always wished to get them together in one place…….
9- I have created a blog J and joined a photography site for my photos…. Which is something I have never thought of..
10- I have changed my bedroom , and decorated it as the way I wanted ,,,, of course after having zillion times fighting with my mom, coz she never likes my taste in choosing colors, furniture …ect…..( I am unique ;p)
11- In my whole life I have never lost a thing ......but this year i lost I things \ people that turned my life into hell ( literally )

12. I lost my babe , which made me miserable, depressed and sad all the time L my babe is my CANON CAMERA L....

13. what happened in # 12 I could live with it,,,,, coz it is a camera and I bought a new one ….. however losing a person - who u loved and still love from the bottom of ur heart, miss him when he is not around , used to be with him everyday , some one who u can not imagine ur life with out him, never thought of that moment,-…but in a sudden u open ur eyes and he is not there !!! it is really harsh, tough and hard to bear..….. what I am talking about is point # 13 , I lost him in a sec….. it has been 3 months and a half, and I still cannot believe it….. every time i see things which remind me of him , I convince my self that he will be back again…yet , I am just misleading my self, force my self to be blind and not to be shocked with the truth ….means I am living in illusion….. coz I can not face the bitter reality….

14- # 14 is my cure, my savior, my true friend, who I have just met….. who understood me from the moment we talked……I have always believed that " Allah takes someone\ something from you, but in the same time he gives u another one\ thing". In this week I truly believe it…." Y" is a friend I met in college, then in blogger, then in MSN, "Y" is the kind of persons who truly advises, guides, helps u, for no price….the kind of persons who never " yjaml or ylf o ydor" to avoid telling u the truth…… I really thank Allah for giving me the chance to know you "Y"…… and I wish that this kind of friendship will be forever……

15. I got new car , mobile, laptop, camera..

16. I had my first 2 car accidents, since I had my license , means 3 yrs ago. And it was other parts' fault: (
17. I changed the way I wear my clothes, the way I put my make up….c0ol
18. Also, I have knew you guys , I enjoy being with you through blogger , love ur comments, love ur posts …..

Indeed. I wish you a very happy new year….. o 3idkm mbark…..

Happy New Year .....

2006-12-25T10:40:00.000-08:00

the photo taken by me ...

"I can not believe that the year will pass, and you will not be around me, to congratulat , or wish me a happy year ....

Yet, i wish you all the best in your life.... and a very happy new year:....

YoU....

2006-12-17T11:10:00.000-08:00

the photo taken by me ..

It takes only a minute 2 get a crush on someone, an hour 2 like someone, and a day 2 love someone, but it takes a lifetime 2 forget someone!

FelicityQ8

الاجنحه المتكسرة

2006-12-14T12:52:00.000-08:00

the photo taken by me:)

ببسمة تملأ ثغري.........

ابدأي يومي

لا ابتسم لانه يوم جديد

لا ...بل لانك بقربي..

بقربي, ترعاني ... تحميني .... تسعدني

**********

طالما انت حولي ... فاني لا ابحث عن السعاده

لانها تاتيني راكضة

تشرق بها ايامي و ساعاتي

*************

حبيبي ويا حلمي الجميل .......... كن بقربي .....ولاتفكر بالرحيل

لا اريد ان استيقظ لاجدك قد رحلت .....

لتتركني " كالاجنحه المتكسره " ....وحيده مع غصات اليمة

words

2006-12-09T07:57:00.000-08:00

thanx to my friend 'dodo', for letting me takeing her pic ;*

وحشتني سواليفك ووحشة شوفتك اكثر

كل ليلة مع طيفك

حبيب الروح انا اتحسر

طاير من عيوني النوم

على ذا الحال انا كل يوم

سمعني حبيبي صوتك

سيرني على كيفك

talented , me ;p

2006-11-28T10:27:00.000-08:00

* dr. faiz alkandri+ dr.ahmed dshti+ other photographers , looking at my pics :)

u remember my last post about the gallery,,,,,, well,,, today's post is the second part :)

the opening was at 10 am ..... deans , prof, photographers from ( bait lothan) have been there ...

was so crowded ,, yet organized ...

that day ( 26\nov\2006) was one of the greatest ,,, happiest and full of surprieses day.....

i got and heard 3 unbelieveable news:

1) the faculty asked me to take pictures of ( old kuwait , like old buildings, al-boom, museums...) so they can make copies of them and put them in all faculties :)

2) i have been chosen to be among the group who will travel to FRANCE ( PARIS).. to show their photos ..yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

3) because of my talent ( photography), and since i havenot taken any classes in photography .. Bait Lothan , by Mr. Baha2 aldeen,, offered me a half-price course in photography,,,,

it has been 3 days ,, and i still cannot believe what happened,,, they shocked me ( in a good way) ,,,, but because Kuwait tv... and AL-rai tv were there... i controlled my self,,, and as soon as they turned off the cameras i jumped ,, screamed , hugged my friends,,,,

what a feeling ;p

just wanted to share u my happiness ...... wish u all the best :*

** i would like to thank ANTIHERO for passing by,,, and saying hi ,,,,,thanx hun,,,, was so happy to see u there :)

MY ART GALLERY :D

2006-11-23T13:33:00.000-08:00

mar7aaaaabaaaaaaaa fellowwwwwws...

how r u all??

inshallah u r doing fine :*

what do u think of the pic above!!

it's multiaple photos,,,,, i took them in different places,,

and inshallah on NEXT COMING SUNDAY\ TUSEDAY\ AnD WEDNESDAY..... i will be participating my photos on the ART gallery at Kuwait University,, located at ADAB ( art) faculty ....the gallery is opening it's doors from 9,30 am....

everybody is welcome to visit, join , or comment .....

i would love seeing u there :)

Ta ta .... :*

p.s. if u wanna take a look at my pics u can visit .... www.flickr.com.... then search for: felicityq8

or : http://www.flickr.com/photos/64477478@N00/

gottcha

2006-11-20T11:14:00.000-08:00

is not he cute !!!

eih hain ,, wainah o wain al cuttness ;p

when i saw him i couldnot stop my self from grabbing my camera, begging him to take this pic,, then he said " in one condition" ,,i said sure why not,,,, then he said " i should take a look at my self in ur car's mirror "

@_@ hehehehhe

i liked his sense of humor, yet he was serious looool

thanx Tyra :*

2006-11-19T10:24:00.000-08:00

i know when u read the title,, u will say what is going on.....

the story is,,,, i was watching channel ( one) dubai tv, out of boredom,,, it was tyra show ...

but guess what!!!

it was discussing my fav. issue >>>>( islam, racism) ....

there were 5 girls, from diffret ethnics groups ( white, black-african american-, latinos,asian, and muslim)

usually, when tyra show is on tv , i just take a look at her hair\ clothes\ shoes , and know what she is talking about , them simply chagne the channel.....

yet, this time, and just because she was talking about islam and what does it have to do with terrorism, i kept the channel.....

i was surprizedand even shocked, because she fought and had a hard talk with a ( black american woman) , because the second was attacking islam by sayig it is a blood-war-slaughtering religion, and i would never sit next to a muslim in a plane or any public place ,,,,,

honestly,i didnot expect Tyra to be that justice and fair when it comes to islam ....

she stood side by side with ( palastinia) who was the fifth girl among the group, she is muslim and lives in the States....

i clapped for the muslim girl when she faced the black woman by saying " how dare u , go and educate ur self" woooow that was tough....... and the whole audience clapped for her......

well, i guess this is enogh ,,,, go and watch this episode of Tyra show,,,,,

the link to the site :

http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/show_recaps/show_recap_mon53.html

different routin

2006-11-17T11:37:00.000-08:00

when i took this application, i realized that it is the end of my university life..... no more classes, no more study, exams, pop- quizes... no more waking up in the early morning to find parkings for the car before the lecture starts....

oh i will miss it wallah..... i donot and cannot imagine my self living away from college atmosphere,,,, without my friends,,,,,,without doing home works....and researches,.... plus beging prof for an A ....

since i'm a senior student majored in Eglish\ Education faculty, i will have 'midani' course before being a real teacher, officialy...

i love to teach, however i want to have my MA,, but since i am livig in kuwait, there is a system says " u have to teach for minimum "3" years to cotinue ur MA .

"" Ahhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this system """

2006-11-11T11:38:00.000-08:00

The Latest Dictionary !!

Experience : The name men give to their mistakes.
Philosopher : A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead.
Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich.
Father : A banker provided by nature.
Criminal : A guy no different from the rest....except that he got caught.
Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills.
Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.
Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after.
Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on.
Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.
Divorce : Future tense of marriage.
Smile : A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

SEE NEW, HEAR NEW, FEEL NEW ( N SERIES)

2006-11-08T14:20:00.000-08:00

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ....yaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

well, guess the "yaaaaaaaaah and the picture above have explained every thing ;p

i bought the N91 yesterday................

i already liked it, though i didnot want this series of phones...

it is like a mobile with an I-pod inside,,

the size of it's internal memory is 4 GB ,,, that is huge ( mashallah ) ;p

plus it is stylish ,,, and has three kinds of accessories ,,,,

over all, u will love it,,,,

but , there is one thing that made me feel so sad,,,,,,,,,,

my previous mobile ,,,, wallah when i see it , yeksr 5a6ri( check the photo )...

but ana ma ankr aljmeel, so that i will use them both ;p

see ya soon :*

p.s. ahm shai al pinapple juice in the photo,,, shkoooooooooo !!!

sharig secrets

2006-11-06T11:51:00.000-08:00

Forgive my stray- ness, and my ' here and there ' words…..
The reason why I am writing this post is because, I have revealed a secret to some on and I felt- still- relieved ,and in rest..

It is a nice, good, strange feeling, to find the one who can really understand what u r trying to reach, tell, think of, an it is even better when he\ she say the words inside u which u couldn't put them in the context so h\ she can feel u ..

Yesterday, I told my eldest sister a secret which I kept inside me for four years, I talked and talked about every thing, details , specifics….. and she was looking on my eyes, with a tender, soft, canny look, which made me dig and dig inside me just to make her live the whole four years where she was not there, to feel the situations, and then to analyze it…

Honestly, I needed her at that moment, coz she opened her heart for me, told me that I was right, and I did what I had to do… she advised me for the next time, when I might face such a situation…

When I finished my story, then went to sleep, I asked my self this question….' Where were she before, why did not I tell her every thing 4 years ago ?"

Then I answered my question, " because I was too shy, scared, bold less to do so…..

so, this lil poem for my dearest sister :)

*******
God bless u sister,

From now on, u r my adviser

U made my way easier

Hope u will be there forever

*********

have u seen her before!!

2006-10-30T13:38:00.000-08:00

hi there,,,

guess u know her!! ....well she is a well known kuwaity woman.... she is a feminist, member of human rights committe , plus a dr. in Kuwait university ... ya she is my dr. :p

it's Dr, Ebtehal Abdullaziz, she teaches me translation (3) .... u cannot imagine how lovely, respectful, cute, spontinus, .... person ..... oh ya, plus she loves giving (A)s eheheheh , who doesnot like her ;p

god bless her

A child

2006-10-27T13:07:00.000-07:00

taken by me :)

Promise me that
u will be around me
taking care of me
************

I'm a child when u are around me
I'm spoiled when u are surrounding me

So, I beg you my love
Do not leave me alone ..

Sault & Sugar !!!

2006-10-24T12:53:00.000-07:00

Sault & Sugar

who always give u this??!!

Did u guess??

It is easy ,, think think …

It is her highness "LIFE" ...

It gives u a lot of Sault n little sugar ....

the Sault and the sugar are a metaphor for :

Sault>>>> problems, troubles , black days, ......ect

sugar>>>>> happy days, raise in a salary , promotion in a career…

we all know this fact….. however few who are aware of it…

and there is a big difference between KNOWLDGE and AWARNESS..

** To know something is to be acquainted of, familiar with, or identifying it…

** How ever to be aware of something is to be conscious, alerted, mindful, and attentive …

so, the person who knows that life is unfair in the amount of good things which it gives , is less than the amount of bitter things is, however , unlike the one who is aware of this truth….. plus the person number (1) will suffer, struggle more than person number(2)….

Indeed, I opened this subject because I have seen people who have been distressed and aggrieved by life, with no reason, and there were others who never experienced pain or soreness since they were born ...

Happy Eid

2006-10-24T12:37:00.000-07:00

slam all

happy eid though it is late .....

wish ur 1st day of eid was happy, nice and peaceful.... plus having 3idiah ;p

miss u all, coz i couldnot log on during ramadan,,,,

** and we r back to the routin and boredom :(

see ya on my next post :)

دعاء

2006-10-02T18:14:00.000-07:00

اللهم إني أستغفرك لكل ذنب.. خطوت إليه برجلي.. أو مددت إليه

يدي.. أو تأملته ببصري.. أو أصغيت إليه بأذني.. أو نطق به لساني.. أو أتلفت فيه ما رزقتني
ثم استرزقتك على عصياني فرزقتنيثم استعنت برزقك على عصيانك
.. فسترته علي
وسألتك الزيادة فلم تحرمني
ولا تزال عائدا علي بحلمك وإحسانك
.. يا أكرم الأكرمين
اللهم إني أستغفرك من كل سيئة
ارتكبتها في بياض النهار وسواد الليل
في ملأ وخلاء
وسر وعلانية
.. وأنت ناظر إلي
اللهم إني أستغفرك من كل فريضة
أوجبتها علي في آناء الليل والنهار
تركتها خطأ أو عمدا
أو نسيانا أو جهلا
وأستغفرك من كل سنة من سنن
سيد المرسلين وخاتم النبيين
سيدنا محمد صلى الله عليه وسلم
تركتها غفلة أو سهوا
أو نسيانا أو تهاونا أو جهلا
أو قلة مبالاة بها
.. أستغفر الله .. وأتوب إلى الله.. مما يكره الله قولا وفعلا .. وباطنا وظاهرا
اللهم امين...

R u aware of it?

2006-09-30T16:51:00.000-07:00

What comes to ur mind when u read these two words?!

FATE & FREE WILL

They seem unimportant … or shouldn't be paid that much attention…
But this is not true…. Because their synonymy will show u how important they are, and why should we understand them..

** Fate: means it meant to be, and u have nothing to do with it, or change it…

** Freewill: it is up to u, ur choice, ur decision to change or ignore..

How????

First, I will tell u my story with these two concept…

I have always heard of those words since I was a child, and whenever a problem or crisis happened my mom used to say it is fate or " hatha almktoob " , " hatha algdr" or " gdr allah wa masha2 f3l" and no body could stop it …
Such as: death, crisis……

So I believed that it is unchangeable, and we have to wait god's help to solve it…

However, freewill, it is in our hand, either yes or o, I do or I do not , agree or disagree, accept or reject ….

Also, most of the phrases I hear are " it is up to u ", " kaifch " , " hatha grarch = this is ur decision".. and no body can choose on my behalf …such as my future, career, husband, major, …..so on.

And to continue what I have started in the first paragraph about hearing these words all the time, however I never understood it clearly. Until, I took a course last summer with the most gorgeous, great, kind, respectful, considerate professor I have ever met, Dr. Lamees Al-bustan, it was " literature and drama class"….. I know u are asking ur self what does this class has to do with the words, and the answer is , we studied Oedipus tragedy where we had to answer the question " did Oedipus had the freewill to kill his father and marry his mother, or it is his fate?" …. So, she ( lamees) had to clarify and explain these concepts in order to be able to answer the question, in that moment i was aware and able to debate , discuss the meaning of the words.

**I have learnt that every words has a meaning and a sense , no matter how simple it is….

To sum up, most of the time ppl keep saying we had nothing to do with it, and it was meant to be … plz stop saying that in every single trouble or problem u face, because it is a cheap and un-civilized way to escape facing the truth … so when some body failed in a course , he\she will blame the fate , but who r u fooling dude? !!!

2006-09-25T16:08:00.000-07:00

mr7ba all ...

well, i think as they always said " a picture worths thousand words"

****location : next to shwaikh faculty ....

*****time : 3z al `9hr 2,30 p.m :(

as u can see from the arrows , two cars stopped in the middle of the street, just to curse each other... ok then what , are u gonna win some compitition, a medal or a world cup??

come on ppl,, it was the first day of Ramadan, keep fasting, turn the AM radio and listen to Quran.... be patient

plz plz stop acting like kids, or showing ur muscels ...

wallah i hate this attitude :(

What my " F " letter stands for??

2006-09-20T14:51:00.000-07:00

When you got hurt by someone who
you care of, love and appreciate,
it will be the biggest dilemma and
most horrible thing to be done by him\her

you will have two choices either to

" FORGIVE ..........OR ............FORGET "

however both choices are difficult and uneasy to achieve
because to forgive you have to be
strong ,forgetful, faithful, and trustful.

But when you decide to forget –him\her-

You will live the rest of your life questioning how could you desert them,

Questioning wither it was
A good , correct thing to do.. you will live in doubts, and fears of this step, asking your self " was it the right thing to do" ….

كلمة..

2006-09-14T14:24:00.000-07:00

" يا لها من دنيا "

بما ان اليوم كان الخميس و عطلة ..كنت طالعة طلعة عائلية للبحر بنية اننا نستانس و نقضي يومنا بضحك و وناسة...لكن للأسف صار شي كدر يومي كله ..

اللي صار ان وحده من البنات كانت حيل قريبة مني , قعدنا نسولف و نتذكر ايام الثانوية و العبط و التهريب ,نتذكر ابلاتنا و سوالف الحب و الاعجاب...كنا نضحك على اتفه السوالف ..استمر هالحال تقريبا ساعه...لما الله يهداها "م" قالت كلمة و ذكرتني بشئ كانت تدري اني ما احب هالطاري و اني اذا سمعت هالكلمة اتضايق و اتكدر و توصل لحد البجي ...

صراحة من وقت اللي صار الى الحين طافت 9 ساعات و انا اسال نفسي ليش سوت جذي؟ كانت تقصدها ؟و الا قالتها بشكل عفوي؟

تعبت من كثر التفكير ...

بعد ما قالت اللي قالته سحبت نفسي و اخذت اعز صديقين كتابي و كامرتي ..قعدت جبال البحر ..اشكيله و احاول القى منه جواب للي

صار...و طلعت مني هالخاطره..

was taken by me..while i was writing my "semi-poem"

من الصعب ان تتقبل الاساءة او الكلمة الجارحة من الاخرين ...ولكنك تستطيع تجاوزها او حتى تجاهلها

ولكن المصيبة ان تأتيك هذه الكلمة من شخص عزيز, صديق, قريب ,حبيب
شخص كنت تثق به, تحبه, تعطيه ولا تأخذ منه , تفتقده
ولا تعرف معنى الامان الا بوجوده ....

ومهما كانت تفاهة او سخافة هذه الكلمة الا انها ستبقى جرحاً لن يندمل ...
آآآآآآآه ........هي هذه الجملة - نعم اسميها جملة و ليست مجرد احرف - سترددها كلما تذكرت هذا الحبيب, او عندما يذكر اسمه امامك,
سترددها كلما احسست بالوحده و الخوف, عندما لا تجد حولك من تشكي له همومك ,
او من تستنجد به عندما تقع في مأزق او مصيبة,
سترددها عندما لا تجد من تأخذ رأيه في ابسط الامور ...

يا لها من حياة شاقة تلك التى ستقضيها وحيداَ من دونه
ويا لها من حياة لا تجد فيها من تثق به او تتخذه صديقاً وفيا , لا تكون للمصلحة مكاناً في باله...

ويا لها من دنيا تبحث فيها عن من يشعر بك , يقرأ ما تكتبه عينيك من كلمات عتاب, شوق, حب, وحنان

آآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآه ..........

2006-09-13T15:42:00.000-07:00

The sacrifice of Love is to:

"Let go of the person you love, thinking they deserve and may find better options"

OR

"Let go of your fun time and start working extra hard to be that person that they deserve"

speechless !!

2006-09-12T13:01:00.000-07:00

Donot ever think of hurting a woman, coz as soon as u do so, the thing happened above, might happen to u ;)

what do u think?

2006-09-12T12:42:00.000-07:00

Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff.You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas.However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

between TWO words!!!

2006-09-11T17:26:00.000-07:00

long time ago, when I was a young girl- till now-, trying to avoid an issue.. which I guess all girls did and still do the same thing… I don't know what the reason is ……. is it the fear of the unknown future, or the unknown person, or the fear of the wrong choice and decision which we have to take …

I am not talking about a decision on a career, or a promotion … or even buying a house or a car..

No …… no…..i know , I have been talking mysteriously .. but i am trying to let u think with me, and put ur self in a situation where u are afraid of the decision that will definitely change ur whole life, ur life as being a single…which as soon as u say "I DO" , will turn into a couple life….a life which u have a partner, a second side to share, care, and think of….

******* Yes I do………………. No , I donot

If you said NO, I DONOT" ………. till when ur NOs will be listened to . … till u r over 28-30………ok there maybe a small chance for u,, but not compared to the ones u had when u were in ur twenties…….

If "YES",,,,,,,, are u sure???? …….. is he MR. right…….is he ur charming prince………. The one with the white horse………ok…..ok … I believe that I am letting my imagination going on and on ,,,,,,however it is not my fault….it's Hollywood romantic movies , plus 3beer's novels !!!

Are you asking ur self, why the hell she brought up this issue?

Because
Because

Because………. Iam in an unstable state of mind…. I am confused between 2 extremely important words………….YES …….NO…….

Yeah, u got it……… 2 days ago ,some one has proposed… he is almost perfect……..and the flaws that encourage me to say NO are few…..not really few….but there are not any…
I know I am still young to get married, I am 20 going 21 on March…. nevertheless , the thing that stopping me from saying no is……well ….are, kids, family, love, and finding my half part, or my soul mate…

Am I acting as a kid??..... that is what mom says about me….. i do not blame her, coz she want to see her eldest daughter wearing white, holding and being hugged by a caring, considerate husband……

When I go shopping and I see a happy family, their children playing around them, and every body is smiling and having a good time, I wish them the best, and I wish that one day I will have exactly what they are having…… I love kids, I love to be a mom and a wife, I wish to have my own family….

This is it for now, I will go and pray ist5ara ….and I will let u know of my decision…

Fountain of LOVE

2006-09-09T15:06:00.000-07:00

These coming stanzas were being written at 3, 44 AM ,,,and i was in a very "moody mood" , so forgive my spelling, grammar mistakes ;) ...also, forgive my bad handwriting on the image i uploaded with this post :)

You…….You…..You

It is always you

but, who are you?

let me guess...

You are not a holy person

because a holy person never does mistakes

however you did it once

************

You are not an angle

because angles never hurt lovers

however you did it once

*************

Are you asking " when did I hurt you ?

when….. when...........Do u really want to know?

when u let me falling in love with you

and never tried to stop me

never slapped me,... and awaken me

never showed me the truth

*******

yes…… the truth about your mysterious persona

about the soul inside you…

about the sincere feelings

about the heart you hide behind

**********

Beloved, it is too late to blame

too late to talk, and finger points ..

it is a FATE more than a FREEWILL.

We have to accept our destiny

***************

And believe me darling

If we are destined to be together

No one can prevent it

Even lords, kings, masters or ourselves.

********************

But keep these coming words in your mind

That, " I loved you once"

And I will never ever stop this love fountain from flooding forever.

2006-09-08T15:10:00.000-07:00

I have always heard of MALCOM X, and the only thing I know about him, that he was an active black American Muslim…

Till last Tuesday , when I watched a movie on ONE channel,the title was " Malcolm x" it was directed by spike lee, and the hero was Denzel Washington .At first, I did not pay it any attention but when the story started to be complicated and the movie reached it's climax, I jumped to my room , picked up a paper and a pencil , started to write and act as a Hollywood critic ;).

Malcolm x ...

Denzel ...who acted the role of Malcom x..

Below, are the points that I commented on the movie, wither positively or negatively:

1- the whole theme was about "Nigros" , racism , and covering under the name of Islam to solve blackness issues ..

2- after watching the movie, I knew that Malcolm x was a thief. And he was in jail when he converted Islam.

3- Most of the speeches Malcolm did, was about Aiga Mohammed , and the thing which I did not like was , every one including Malcolm him self, that they were seeking Aiga's satisfaction, but not ALLAH's .

4- There was a scene which I liked, when Malcolm had the complete control over Americans and officers, and all that was under the name of Islam, so that means Islam was dominated back then .

5- Also, there was a scene, when a young man came to Malcolm, and said I want to be a Muslim, however x did not pull him right away to Islam, but he asked him " do u know what is Islam", and the boy did not have the perfect answer, so Malcolm asked him to leave. It means something about true Muslims.

6- When x had his first daughter he called he " 36a Allah", means ALLAH's gift.. I was surprised that they knew Arabic words such " atta= 36a= gift" .

7- I noticed that Aiga Mohammed never talked publicly in the movie .

8- I hated Malcolm's attitude toward the white girl, when she offered her services to help him in supporting his case ( Islam), he said we do not need ur help, and left her in shock . though she said " I 'm not prejudice, unlike my ancestors", so she clarified the way she thinks how unfair her parents and grandparents were.
9- In a public speech, x said that the only solution for our case , is the complete separation between white and black.. I find that an exaggeration. Beside his main aim was the black issue , but not Islam..

10- I did not understand a phrase which said by Aiga Mohammed, it was " there will be no more after me" , I think he considered him self as a prophet , or a messenger ?!

11-What a great, unbelievable, peaceful scene, when Malcolm x visited Mecca, and did Al -hajj … and I was in total shock, when he recited ALFAT7A..

12-His visit to Mecca , enlightened him and showed him the right path, the right way to control and support his case.

13-Did not understand it, when his wife did not wear her Hijab, which she put it from the beginning of the movie.. does that mean she is losing faith?

14- denzel did great job when he acted as malcolm, he imitated every single thing which x would do.

15- i was wondering about places denzel went to in movie, such as Mecca, jbal 3rfat, and he entered mosques.. were all of that real ?!

Well, those were my comments on the movie which i have always heard of it's hero...

later;)

experts ....u r welcome

2006-09-06T19:20:00.000-07:00

hi there...again

well, this post is being posted because i am askig ur help, experience in cameras.... ya

coz i have just lost my beloved babe :( .... i mean my dear camera ... and i am still in pain and misery due to losing it..

it was Cannon power shot A 530... it was ok....

but as long as i am buying a new one,, i need ur suggestions and advice...

i need a digital camera , which is similar to the profissonals but not the one used by prof., i ment the quality and vibration...

***i am thinking of Nikon p3 and p4 ...

ANY SUGGESTIONS ?????? .....waiting u ;)

Life is never Fair

2006-09-06T15:14:00.000-07:00

love.....love...love......... why it is all about love...???

can u define " love"?? is it u loving ur mom, dad, bro and sis,,,, or ur sweetheart...wife...husband..??

well, u can love whoever u wanna love,,, but u have to keep in mind the day when u LOSE them,,,u should be prepared for their upsence..

that is why i'm writing this post.. i have been through a really sad inccident today, which i donot wish to have one in my whole life.. it is about my friend who has just lost her mother in an car accident... ok ok , u will say that is is ok , and it could happened to any one.... but the touching side in her story that , 5 minutes before she lost her mom, they were having that great conversation , which a mom could have with her daughter..

the conversation took place at one of kuait's malls, they were doing shopping, having fun, never thought that this will be the last time they are together....

my friend was telling me that her mom felt that she is gonna die any minute, because she ( the mom) was advising her girl, talking to her like they willlnot have any more conversation.. the mom was giving her babe a notes, lessons for life, coz she knew that she is not going to be around her gurl....

so, that is why , I keep picking, searching and try TO NOT LOVE any person who is passing through my life, so i donot WAIT, OR SURPRISED with the day i lose her/him..

** below is a poem i wrote, when i was thinking of my friend'd tragedy...

i donot want to love u

so i donot lose u

****

u made my life with u easy

so donot go and leave me in dizzy

*******

i forget the world when u r around

so donot go and leave me in wound

*****

hold my hands forever

so i donot get astray forever

2006-09-05T15:11:00.000-07:00

ولا تزعل

ولا تزعل ولا تتعب شعورك...ولا تاخذ على خاطرك مني
ابتأسف الين ارضي غرورك...واقول اني مقصر غصب عني...

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يا بعدهم كلهم..يا سراجي بينهم ...عطني من دنياك حبك..واترك الباقي لهم...

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قله وفقه ربي بغيري..واني رحت في شري و خيري..له مصيره و لي مصيري..لا يعلقني بدربه
قله اللي وصلني منه يكفيني عمر..كيف يبرى طعن سكين الغدر..قله كان لي عنده قدر..لا تلاقينا امام الناس يسلم

..لا يبين لاي احد انه متالم...لا يخلينا حكايه ...كفايه ...ما جرى منه كفايه

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اعذريني يا الهدايا..لو هملتك بالزوايا ...ما ني متحكل اشوفك ..و اللي جابك مو معايا..
اللي جابك وينه عني..يا ترى زعلان مني..ما دري اني في غيابه كم شكيته للمرايا..
اعذريني يا الهدايا

راح و خلاني لحالي ...شفت و ايش سوى بحالي...خبريني و يش اسوي...لو عشق قلبه سواياقولي لو هو حب غيري...

وش يكون اسمع مصيري..غير اموت انا بمكاني و اترك الدنيا ورايا.....

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فقدناك

غبت يوم وعذرناك و بولهنا انتظرناك..يالله ارجع كفاية...بصراحه فقدناك

يعني ما صاحت اذنك...ما بكى الشوق منك...ما صرخ يوم حزنك ...لحظة اللي طريناك

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فمان الجرح يا ذيك السوالف بعد ما خانت ضنوني ضنوني...

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اهتم فيني ...حط بالك عليا ..سكني بروحك و عينك و قلبك

حافظ على اهل القلوب الوفيه...مو كل يوم تلاقي واحد يحبك..

لو قلت لك زعلان جبلي هدية..لو قلتلك ما ابيك قولي احبك..

قلبي طفل و يحب يلعب بقلبك..

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ما اذكر متى

هاك كلي ..ضمني لك..احتويني حنيه...

انا من لي ...شوف عينك...غير دربك...

ذلني.....

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تنتظر كلمة احبك ...شايفك مشغول فيها...كل شي بوقته حلو...ليه مستعجل عليها

واوعدك كلمة احبك منها ما يمل قلبك...انتا بس طولي بالك ..كل شي بوقته حلو..يا حلو

Need you guys...

2006-09-04T14:38:00.000-07:00

help....help.....

any one who knows a house in `3rna6ah or one of the nearest areas for sale plz plz plz , let me know.....

it must be a big one, recently built ( 2-3 yrs ).... in front of the street,,,, with a dewaniah,,, atleast 2 floors... a garden or a yard,,and parkings...

p.s: some of the points above can be eliminated ...

مطلوب بيت (للشراء)..في منطقة غرناطة او المناطق المجاورة

يكون كبير نسبيا...عالشارع....تم بناؤه حديثا( بين 2-3 سنوات)..مع وجود ديوانية...عالاقل طابقين ...مع وجود

مواقف للسيارات و حديقة او واجهه

يمكن الاستغناء عن احد الشروط السابقة.......

لاي استعلام او خبر يرجى ارسال ايميل او تعليق ...

thanx for ur help,,, guys

ladies.....choose

2006-09-03T18:24:00.000-07:00

المرأه آله موسيقيه فأي الآلات أنتِ؟ لكل آله موسيقيه مميزاتها كذلك المرأه لكل منهن طابعها ونغماتها وسحرها وكم أنه لا يوجد موسيقار يجيد العزف على جميع الآلات الموسيقيه كذلك لايوجد من ينتصر على كل امرأه في كل معركه

.من النساء من تشبه (الناي) نحيلة القوام متأججة العواطف مسرفة الخيال تتوق للموسيقي البارع الذي يبث فيها الحياه لتستجيب له وتسمعه أعذب ألحانها.وهناك المرأه التي تشبه (الطبل) انها المرأه الشرسه لايمكنك التفاهم معها الا بالدق على دماغها وتعاملها بحزم لتدب فيها الحياه ويدوي صوتها عاليا ولكنها لاتخلو من ميزات أهمها الصبر على

المتاعب التي تجلبها

ومنهن المرأه (البيانو) المرهفه التي تتصدر الصالونات ولا تنتقل من مكانها الا بحساب وهي لا تذهب اليك ولا تبحث

عنك ولكنها تحملك على البحث عنها والجلوس بين يديها وتستمع لها ليست فائقة الجمال ولكنها واسعة النفوذ في عالمها ويكفيها فخرا أنها أوصلت عشاقها مرتبه عاليه

ومنهن (القربه الموسيقيه) التي لاتخرج أنفاسها الا اذا امتلأت بالهواء فاذا خلت منه انكمشت فهذه المغروره بجمالها يعيش قلبها على المديح ولا تعيش الا في الجو الذي تظهر به نفختها الكذابه

وهناك من تشبه (الكمنجه) الرقيقة المزاج التي تشبه الدمعه الغاليه لا تستطيع أن تعزف عليها وتسمعك سحر ألحانها

الا اذا حملتها على ساعدك برفق ولمست بحنان أوتار قلبها لترسل لك الألحان المفعمه بالحنان والحب ولاتنسى أن تعيدها الى العلبه المخمليه التي أخرجتها منها لئلا يصيبها العطب

وأصعبهن مراسا (القانون) ولكن من ميزاتها أنها متعدده الألوان والآفاق

ومنهن (الجيتار) لا تطيق الكلام طويلا بل تكتفي بعبارات مقتضبه فيشعر المستمع بما تنطوي عليه من غموض ساحر

ومنهن من تشبه (العود) تحتاج دائما الى من يحنو اليها ويعاملها برفق كي تستجيب له انها مثال المحبوب الناعم الذي زعم أن قطرات النسيم تجرح خديه والويل للزوج الذي لا يقيم لعواطفا وزنا

ومنهن ( النفير) الذي لا يكف العازف عن النفخ فيه حتي ينقطع نفسه وزوجها يتبرم على أي حال ولا يربطه بها الا خشية من أن يتزوج بأخرى تكون شر منها.

i knew the type of women i belong to....

so, what kinda woman you are???

2006-09-02T15:02:00.000-07:00

بوح مشاعري

هذه بضع كلمات كنت تدور في خاطري..صففتها ...نظمتها ..لتكون جملا قصيرة..ارسلها لشخص عزيز انشده فيها الرأفة و الرحمة..اطلبه العودة الى احضان من احبه و اعزه...لتتحول سنوات الشقاء ..الى دهور من السعادة و الفرح

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لا ادري ما هي هذه المشاعر التي تجتاح عواطفي
ما سرها و مكنونها...و لماذا في هذا الوقت بالتحديد؟
هل لانني اشتاق اليك..اتحرى طيفك البهي...
هل لانني استرق النظر... علني اراك واقفا امامي .. مادًا لي يدك التي لطالما كانت هي الحانية

لماذا اطلت البعاد و الفراق....ليس انت من يهجر الاحباب ..
ليس انت نفسه الانسان الذي علمني الحب و الرحمه والرأفة بقلوب الاحبة
اين... اين انت؟..اين ديارك..اين ارضك..
اجبني...قلي..
تاكد انني سأاتيك راكضة ..و قلبي تملأه اعاصير الشوق و اللقاء

اتسالني اذا ما اشتقت اليك؟؟؟,,هل تتحرى جواباً؟؟
انت الوحيد الذي يملك اجابة لسؤالك هذا..
ايام و ايام ..اسابيع و شهور.. مرت و كأنها لم تمر..
ضاق الكون بوسعه علي...لحظة فراقك

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ذبلت حبيبتك ... لقد فقدت الابتسامة التي طالما حييتك بها

عد لي حبيبي...واطفأ نار الحرمان التي ملأت قلبي...

عد لي لتحضنني بين احظان لم اشأ ان افارقها ....

FELICITYQ8

The end ...

2006-09-01T18:24:00.000-07:00

As I said before it wasn't a happy ending,, coz 3 weeks ago ,he was asking the no. again and I said no , then I changed the subject, with a smile, but he took it as an offence, however I did not mean it… so we talked, argued , and kinda turned to a fight and all that was on msn,, then he said we are not meant to be together ,coz every time I talk to u , u take it as a big joke. SO, bye bye ….. I did not say anything , except, take care and bye bye…..unconsciously I cannot deny that I was in shock, and my heart was bleeding , coz for sure i will MISS him, and miss our old days, when we used to talk, laugh, discuss things, choose certain topics.. even when he asked my opinion about his paintings…

He was and STILL someone special , coz he never hurt me or even tried to….maybe he does not know, that every time I saw him online, I was happy, even if he was away… sometimes I did not feel like wanna log on, but for him I leave every thing behind just to have minutes with him…

Are u asking " I did not trust him?", I did trust him and still…..coz he knew many things about me, some are personal, others are general… however, it is not a matter of trust, but rather a fear of the unknown , or a fear of the future of this relationship. …

****Yes I call it a relationship coz of :

1- it took 3 years to build up this relationship ..
there was a development of feelings and emotions.. 2-
3- I took it seriously, though I was laughing a lot…
4- sometimes when he did not log on for more than 2 days, I felt like missing him , and wanna call him to ask wither he was fine or not..
5- it was based on honesty, trustiness , friendship.
6- I never took it as a joke or something nonsense..
7- both of us never tried to took advantage of both sides ( him and i).. 8- and the main reason to call it a relationship, that I miss him, which means that there is a feeling toward him.…

i can make contact with him, coz he is a well-known person, beside i still didn't remove him from my msn list, maybe because i still have faith the he will come back again. Who knows,,… but the problem is that I do not have the guts to do so, and I need some one to push me , but I did not tell anyone about the whole matter…

Indeed, I have just realized that I was "in love" with him long time ago and it was unconsciously, I mean I did not feel it , till I lost him… I do regret it, but I have my own explanation that I already mentioned above…

This is my tragedy, cannot be compared with others', but for me it is a real hurt, that will be always hidden in my heart….

***These honest words are for you (S).. I am really sorry if I hurt u one day, and if I did so, make sure that it was not in purpose.. forgive my childish actions, and my innocent jokes, which were not in the right time or context…

Yours …

****

" catching hope"

An end of a story!!! part (1)

2006-09-01T17:39:00.000-07:00

I have thought and hesitated many million times before writing and publishing this post, not because it is personal, but because i needed help, and i still need it. It is my first and only real "love" story that happened to me, and i am telling u the truth, that the end of this 3 years love story was sad and tragic, and the main reason was my DIGNITY and pride , plus other reasons which i will mention later.

It started at the end of 2002… I wasn't really prepared to such a feeling or a beginning of as I called it , an " unknown ending relationship", coz my main aim on the internet is to learn and teach, and nothing further, which means no place or time to have or make any kind of love stories…. So, one day I was in one of English teaching rooms, where I was an instructor of English with my friend, and there were a group of English learners, and HE was one of them, in the beginning he was shocked that I am a Kuwaiti girl, and I am a teacher, and that was the beginning of the story… we exchanged e-mails, and nothing more.. from the little cheat chat we did , I knew that he is a Kuwaiti student, studies dentistry at UK ….. any ways , whenever I am online or he is, we say hi and talk about latest things that are happening…. And that lasted till last year when he started to ask me my phone number…

I know what are u gonna ask…. Did I or did not I ??? …. Well, I did not, and I told him, don't ask me again coz there is zero chance to give it to u…but he never gave up,, and whenever I am online he kept asking it, and he never being despaired – between u and I – I liked it, sometimes I think that he really wanted me…..honestly, I felt and still feeling that I was cruel, harsh and rough with him , because of the zillion times I said NO to his request….i was not selfish, and u cannot blame me, I was thinking of my family , my mom and dad, and their trust which they gave me,, I cannot do any thing behind their back, that wasn't the way I was raised up …but at the same time, there was that inner voice that told me to do it and give him my # just to see what he wanted…

Anyways, days and months, then he is back to Kuwait, where he insisted and insisted on the # , and I kept saying no way, stop it, do not even think about it… then he asked to see me, I said the usual answer , NO, but in a genteel, kind way, which was in changing the subject into a funny one, so he could forget the idea… …. However, that does not mean that I am happy with what I am doing…

to be continued ....

Wanna those days to be back :(

2006-08-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

I was checking my digital camera which i havenot used for mostly 2 monthes ,since i finished my summer course....and there were so many funny,crazy, unblieveable pictures, which i forgot or didnot pay them that attention..then i remembered that i took the camera to the ku( kuwait university) coz my best friend "asoom" asked me to bring it to accomplish an isane idea she just had thought of.

(Asoom )is "me", i mean mentaly , we are both crazy, wild, reckless, never think of the consiquences of our actions.however, we are funny. lovely, adorable,cute,charming ......girls

So i woke up on saturday morning , put the camera on my bag, headed to the faculty of Art thinking of the positions and the places where we will take the photos..... we ( Asma and i) attended the two lectures we had, and ofcourse we werenot listening to even a word of what the professors were saying, coz we were planing and disccusing the shoots which we have to take to put them on our sapces on msn:

* first scene:D

we went to the main library( Jaber alahmed library in shwaikh), took pics of books, researches, the man who prints papers, and me :)....

*second scene:D

then we moved to the cafeteria, and pictured the food they serve, the table which is reserved just for us (the group of english girls) :P

*third scene:D

then we took a short tour around the streets of kifan and shwaikh with my lovely gorgeous car ...it was really a wild one, we kept laughing, joking , commentig at every silly thing we saw, maybe because it will be the last course for asma in ku, and she was having that kind of scary feelig of leaving the life she used to have for four years... or maybe becaouse i was going to miss her, and miss those happy, unrewindable days..so i was taking every possible chance to keep those days as memorable as i can..

* last scene:(

it was the parking of our faculty, we sat in the car for a whole hour in a 46 c , chatting and looking at the pics we took.... and when we said goodbye, we cried and cried, huged and didnot want to believe the truth that we are not goig to see each other any more... it was a cheerless, depressed, sad moment which i donot wish to have it agai in my life...

*****this post is dedicated to ASoom .... LOVE U GIRL

we are in the bus which takes us around shwaikh faculties, coz we are not allowed to drive our cars there....

this pic was taken in the main library at shwaikh, and those books and dictionaries are the one which are recquired to be read in order to write a 10-15 pages for "lexicography" course with prof. hashan alajmi ..... and guess what!! thanx god that i have passed it with an A- grade w0ow

i'm rich !!!

2006-08-30T07:01:00.000-07:00

How rich are you? >>

I'm loaded.
It's official.
I'm the 871,084,825 richest person on earth!

help....help

2006-08-28T14:27:00.000-07:00

so cozy......

the kind of help i need , might be funny in some ways.... the dilamma is, i can control it, but i donot want to do so, or maybe i doot know how...

letus jump to the issue.....my big, funny, uncontrolled issue is, that i cannot live a day without having a:

1- white chocolate mocha frappucino..
2- one of their sandwiches (cheese crossant or panini).

plz plz plz donot laugh or say that i am an insane person, coz it becoms a nightmare.

the whole thing started 3 yrs ago,when i started going to college and still growing up . first i went there just to have a calm, cozy place to study for my midterms, then i became addicted to it. whenever i am near any starbucks store i have to order the previous order, even if i am not hungry .. and sometimes i am really broke but i manage my way to borrow or "steal" the enough amount of money.

i know that it is a "controlable" thing, but i need an advice to how to stop it, or atleast have it once in a week...

and as ana dvice from me to u, try to have the frappucino that way:

white chocolate mocha frappucino, extra rainy, double shoot, no cream nor caramel...

yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmy..... ok honestly, coz it's late, i gotta call my bro to bring it right now:) need some :P

reading is for free

2006-08-25T14:56:00.000-07:00

honestly, nothing here worths to be read, coz it is just -well - read it then judge,,,

i felt that i wanna waste my\ur time..... so plz let me do it , and forgive my crazyness:)

though i already donot have a moment to even "scratch my head"<

i go to the college at 8 am then come back at 3 pm..after that i change my clothes, pray al39r , then run to the work from 4-8 pm, then if i have time i would go my my grandma, then on my way to home , i go to mcdonalds to have my both lunch and dinner... then i work on my pc for awhile, do my home works, prepare papers and worksheets for the next day, then fall asleep on the desk..

i know it is a very busy schedual, but believe it or not i still can feel the boredom and lonliness ....

anyways, thanx for leting me sharing u my tediousness .....

i'm broke:(

2006-08-24T14:13:00.000-07:00

ya, financialy i'm broke, and it just has been 2 days since i got my salary...the story of my "poorness" started yesterday.

i spent 300 kd, on a short golden skirt+sleeveless top,+ some accessories ,can u believe it..

well this brought up a new issue, which is the amount of money that _kuwaitis_ spend in any occasion, some spend less than 100, others spend a whole salary, others more.. but in my case i spent it all in less than a day... i know i cannot control it... but it is the way we used to live in..

the occasion is, a reception and dinner coz my grandpa came from london after being there for 3 months, he had a lung cancer, so he did a very dangerous surgery, which made him live with 3\4 lung..

so, it is a big party with hundreds of ppl coming, and as any normal kuwaiti girl, i have to the STAR of that party, and show my beauty through make-up. clothes, hair and even the shoes.
so i went to every single mall in kuwait, searching and lookig for the most elegant and expensive dress i can wear. so i found many, but to be honest with my 300 kd salary i couldnot afford it, not because i cannot manage my way to have the moey, but i have to fulfil a commitment , which is never ever ask money from my parents as long as i am working ... so i didnot have the guts to do so, and i kept looking for a dress which has both the elegancy and affordable amount of money,

i found dresses, but not the one i have dreamed of, so i chose one and tried it, it was gorgeous , but bcoz i was not expecting it, i didnot like it that much, and with the insisting of my sister and aunt i had to take it, wiether i liked it or not...

then i picked the suitable accessories, shoes ,hair-clips, even the underwears... bottom-line, from A-Z..

the irony is. the whole party is gonna take just 2 hrs:D

see ya in part 2, to continue what will happen on the day when "ME", will shock every one with my newlook :D

woo00oo00oo00w

2006-08-22T15:48:00.000-07:00

finally i did.....

first hi there...

to be honest, i have never thought that i will do this step, i mean being a blogger and stick to it.

i used to read other's blog , but not to write my own. hopfully i will be commited ro it. for now, i will go and do some changes for the appearence and the picture which i will disply..